Tuesday, 26 August 2008.

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hypnotised . mesmerised .
is there more ??
Dream on Nurul .



Day five .


I have to admit that day four wasn't well . Stepping into MWTI with the knowledge that a Quran paper is waiting for me , i get stressed out . & furthermore , i am blinded with my unstable emotions . When Eka hugged me , i was raining again & Raihanah stroke my back trying to calm me down . Gosh . i was like a baby ! Shame on myself . AND during the paper , i was having mental block ! nice isnt it . with the musolla getting colder by the second , i just couldnt think ! GONE . I am preparing myself for retaking that particular paper coz i somehow know that i have to retake it . Ain't blaming anyone , just blaming myself . After eating , Bonch & me went to CityHall . She wanted to get herself a wallet . -_______-" haha ! nvm . i need to relax anyway . Bonch went nagging and nagging coz i am still moody and cloudy . It feels funny to hear her nagging because im the one who always nag at her . haha !
I fell asleep in the train . At home , i received a few encouraging msgs telling me to be strong . & adek msged me so i return with a call . We talked but adek kept laughing . hah ! but i felt much better . although the topic was rather depressing . hah . But anyways , thank you so much guys ! Words cant describe my love to you all . Syukran !

As for today , i am better . more stable . ALHAMDULILLAHH ~ Arabic was do-able . (: I can smile finally ! & i can even laugh . haha ! I can see love everywhere . (: Im glad that adek's paper was fine . So does mine . hihi . (: But i have to say that it was very irritating to hear the sound of pencilbox dropping on the floor every now and then . hahha ! seriously . it gets on my nerves . haha ! but since the arabic paper was fine , i managed to keep my level of frustrations down . ahah ! [:
After eating , i thought of collecting my clothes at TKC but i was filled with laziness and with the fact that there's going to be tuition at three today , i decided to go straight home . hihi . So fadila & me went home . I pity Fadila . She slept at 440am yesterday . Memorising FiQh . So she was sleeping in the train . I hope she will not sleep late today . Stay strong Fadila !


Oh Allah , i am yet still struggling to stay strong . Therefore Oh Allah , please grant me the strength i need to overcome this painful adversity . I am still not over it but i am trying to get rid of it . Only YOU know how painful and how hard it is for me . Let me have the strength to at least smile although my heart still hurts and still bleeds . For only YOU who knows and understands .

"Verily, with every hardship is relief. "


Faseha . Rasyidah . 'Alima . Tan . Maryam . Sholehah .
SELAMAT BERJUANG . i love you all very much !
& not forgetting , Ridwan ,
Nurul wish Wan goodluck . Blaja betol2 . Make everybody proud ok ? Wan jgn lupe Nurul yerr ~ & jgn lupe dier plak ! hehh ~ :P keep in touch ! Selamat berjuang Wan !


Maths paper will be on thursday ! & there will be no school for us , the preU2.2 tomorrow ! hoho ! its not something to enjoy about . Mind you , MATHS paper waiting . I am so tortured ! haha ! (:

Well , i shall get ready for tuition now . Gosh , this kills me . haha !
Pray for my health , my composure and my prelims ya ? Syukran Jazilan .



i'm holding back . but im touched . (:



ALLAHU A'LAAM ~

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