Saturday, 23 August 2008.

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how do i reverse the chemistry ?



day two . i am still raining .


mama brought us to TKC for our hari raya clothes . despite the prelims that's coming , i followed to just ease of my mind . but eventually , i just couldnt . i just couldnt find the mood to choose one for myself . End up , mama chose it for me . iQah , Mia & Yaya grumbled . When i asked why , they answered , " Kak Nurul , chooselah sendirik . Yang mama choose tu tklawa ~ " I smiled and answered , " Biarlah .. Akak ikot jek . " iQah & mia answered, " Kak Nurul , your duty is to your heart ! " I laughed and answered , " Ei . Akak bukan Mulan ehk ! " sisters ~ They just dont get it . Yes , i know , it's suppose to be my own decision in choosing the way & how i wanna dress for hari raya . But , i dont see the point of it . I am eventually very down , cant really think straight & seeing my mum being excited to choose for me my clothes is already a happiness for me . Besides , she does that always especially when it comes to me . I do envy my sisters sometimes coz they have the opportunity to choose their own clothes . But thinking back about it , i thank Allah that mama does that . Oh , and in the end , my three little sisters agreed to it . Then it was their turn ! haha . choosing for them is my job . mix & match here and there . & a little of nagging . ahah ! i have to . or else they'll go wild ! VOILA ! done . pretty them ! (:
IQah asked me a question that i cant seem to find the answer .
"Kak Nurul , why are you not yourself anymore recently ? Why do you keep on crying ?"
Earlier today , Mia & Yaya asked the same question too .



Oh Allah , please don't let my sisters go through the pain im going through right now . I cant bear to see them in my situation . Please give me the strength to continue to be strong for them & please dear Allah , don't ever give me the chance to let them down even once .. 'coz i love them too much .

i pity my turtle toy . It's getting pretty soaked up . gosh . hah .
Can’t wait til I get through this phase
'Coz it’s killing me ..

oh , Fadila gave me a surprise call at around noon . Just to check on me . Somehow , i feel that she can sense something . (: Thanks fadila . I'm touched . Syukran ! Syg awk sgt3 ..

& 'A' , thanks for the encouraging words . seriously , i was quite surprise though . tak sangke plak .. you know what im talking about lah ehh ~ Syukran jazilan . kimslm your long lost twin yahh . hah .

& Eka , i need a hug ! ):





.. لا يكلف الله نفسا الا وسعها
Nurul is strong .
(is she ?)
It's gonna hurt when it heals too ..
It'll all get better in time ..



pssst : Qur'an is on MONDAY . one more day . & silence kills .



ALLAHU A'LAAM .

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